Let Love Be Your Guide

emily-j-v
Sep 22, 2017
2 min read

Anxiety comes and it goes, it has allowed me to connect with some people throughout my life so far, people I thought I couldn't normally be close with. It almost feels comforting knowing that someone else feels the same way you do and that their may the slightest chance that you aren't alone!! That's how anxiety can make you feel, isolated from your surroundings, your friends and yourself! There have been plenty of times where I was overwhelmed with fear that I initially lost myself for that moment in time. I remember the first time I had an anxiety attack, I was petrified and wasn't sure how to contain it. Guess what?? I couldn't! It consumed my life, pressured me into missing out on parties and social events because things didn't happen how I planned them in my mind. Until I decided that I didn't want to live a life ruled by fear anymore, it was literally sucking my happiness and my passion for life! I still remember to this day, spiralling into a major anxiety attack at my year 7 orientation disco because my two best friends weren't where I thought they would be. There was a time when I was embarrassed of that situation because of how much my anxiety controlled me and caused me to overthink everything and trust me I still do it now, but I can look back at the little girl from that night and be filled with pride and dignity because of how far I've come. I never thought I would get to a stage where I'd be able to control my anxiety instead of allowing it to control my thoughts and emotions. What changed for me? It didn't happen overnight( believe me), but it did however take a lot of perseverance and over time a build up of confidence.

When I started showing myself more self-love and I showed myself that I mattered that's when my anxiety took a back seat. Maybe that's all it was all along... the little girl in me was screaming for attention because she didn't feel loved or accepted and she was deeply scared in every moment. Today I allow myself to go with the flow, I trust that the Universe has my back and that I don't need to consciously control every outcome before it happens. I just need to breathe, stay mindful and present and let the Universe do it's thing. I'm so thankful that today I have the ability to manage my thoughts and feelings, it's not always smooth sailing but I ensure that I take gentle care of my mind, body and soul and do my best to show up for myself so I can be the best version of me.

Inhale positivity and exhale anxiety!!