Solitude is not to be feared

"No I'm not waiting on anyone"

"Table for one please"

"Yes its just myself tonight"

Loneliness. To think that you were something I once used to fear.

I specifically remember to this day feeling so timid & afraid to be seen alone whether it be eating out at the local shopping centre or being with my "friends " during school lunch or recess. There was a point in my life where I would sit and be with anyone for the sake of not being alone, but regardless of whether I was physically alone or not I already felt it emotionally so I was just trying to mask what I was really feeling. Funny that

I guess little Em never understood the importance of solitude. That being alone and feeling lonely were and still are two different things.

Being alone is normal, it's healthy to enjoy your own company and to allow your mind to escape. Write, draw, dance, eat, and just be. Run wild and free without the pressure of having to please anybody else.

I'm so glad that over time through puberty, dating mishaps and lessons learnt the one thing i'll always take away is that learning to love yourself is a process and part of that process is enjoying your own company.

Growing up I was always a natural introvert and felt content when I was alone in my own environment such as my bedroom or the dance studio, but now I've jumped off two feet out of my comfort zone and have found joy in going places by myself too.

"It is better to be alone than in bad company". In my opinion you won't get better company than your own. How else are you gonna figure out how awesome you are and why people love having you in their company. The same principle applies to being single. There is no reason to feel pressured to be in a relationship, if you don't feel that it aligns with your truth at the moment...that's OKAY!! Everything will unfold in its natural timing and the best things happen unexpectedly anyway, not by luck or default or because you planned to be like every one else. The universe knows when it's your time, whether it comes to friendships or dating the universe has your back and will not fail you.

Embrace who you are. It may be daunting. It may be frightening but I promise you it'll feel so liberating and exciting that your anxiety will look around, realise theres nothing to be afraid of and just allow you to breathe.

Its 9:49am on a Saturday morning and I'm at my favorite health cafe, sipping a protein shake *making that awakward sound* and laughing myself internally because life is more fun when you can laugh at yourself. Never take life too seriously.

One step at a time, you are in control of your destiny. You are enough!! I'll repeat that again

YOU ARE ENOUGH! There is nothing wrong with wanting to be around people just as long as you don't forget that you don't need people to validate you or to increase your worth. You do that perfectly on your own.

Go to that sushi bar you've always wanted to try, take a painting class, go for walk. Let your soul be free and sing from the top of your lungs without giving a dam. One of my favourite things about being home alone is that I can dance and sing outrageously in my underwear without a care in the world because nobody is home to judge me 😉

Until next time sunflower...

Unconditional love always,

Ex

P.s Yes you are a sunflower, growing and blooming in your own pretty way🌻