Late Night Thoughts

I am thankful for your existence in my life and I am thankful for your absence. Simply put the lessons that were needed couldn't have become clear whilst the connection was present. Thats the painfully beautiful thing about life sometimes, it brings us people who we never even thought we needed and could love and then removes them from our life to help us find a deeper part of ourselves thats been hidden away. I believe in life its how you decide to look at it, you can either see the lesson, apply it and live our your best version of you possible or you can stay the same and move on to the next higher teacher. These teachings are all ways to help us evolve at exactly the right moment and if we choose to ignore it then the Universe will deliver the exact same package with a different bow on it to make it look prettier and more appealing. Don't judge every present by its packaging. The lesson only gets harder to accept and face. Except this time I have finally found peace in learning that its safe for me to have boundaries and what that looks like for me.

I am learning to create a balance between having a heart of gold in a world that sometimes needs me to be assertive, I am learning that saying no is a part of loving and respecting myself and that I can't save every body or fix their broken pieces that need healing. I am learning how to hold space for people whilst accepting that and to have compassion in a healthy way that doesn't compromise my own self-worth because thats how toxic relationships are formed. I will not ignore my own needs and my own mind, body or soul. Instead i'm choosing to take back my power, to not react but to send love and healing to those who need it. I'm choosing to put more energy into finding out what makes me the happiest and creating the fulfilling life I am going to be proud of and eventually share with someone significant one day.

I am getting to know the new next level version of me and it is an empowering, healing and exciting process that I am learning to embrace and love! Everything is happening in perfect alignment through Divine Timing and for that I am grateful and I am humbled. I choose forgiveness over resentment. I choose peace over conflict. I choose growth over feeling limited and I choose healing over pain. I choose me because I matter ✨ ❤️