1,2,3...Make A Wish

As I sit down and prepare for one of the biggest milestones of my life thus far, I am overwhelmed with an alchemy of emotion; gratitude, love, devotion, pride and joy. They say that your life begins at twenty-one, yet I feel like my life truly began the moment my body and soul decided to unite on this beautiful place we call home. As a little girl, I remember vividly looking forward to the day that I turned twenty-one, I didn’t envision the details of the party I would have, the colour of the dress I’d wear or any of the materialistic objectives, instead I remember feeling excited for this moment of my life because in my mind and heart’s eye this is was the most exciting time of an individual’s life. The time you have the most freedom, joy, abundance and happiness. When I was a little girl, I never imagined what my life would look like; but ten years later I am proud to say it has definitely turned out better than I could ever imagine - not because of how much money I have or the job I work in. Better yet, it’s because I have chosen to make my life the best it can be, through all the triumphs, tribulations and challenges I claimed my happiness back from those who denied me of having any and along the way I have learnt some truly valuable lessons, ones that I feel not many people learn, even by the time they peacefully die.

The past twenty - one years have prepared me for the woman I am today; strong, yet vulnerable, peaceful yet fierce, loving and kind-hearted. I am a woman who knows herself and loves herself from head to toe. I am a woman who isn’t afraid of what people think of her and knows that nobody can define her by their own perspective or opinion, she defines herself. I am a woman who has learnt to accept her flaws, and walk proudly into the light of her divine feminine nature, I am owning who I am and who I rise up to be; the next level queen she lives within my soul and plays with my inner child every morning and night. They are there to comfort me and remind me that even on the days I feel less than okay, because I am bloated, anxious and simply a human being. Even on those days I will be okay.

There used to be a little girl where I once stood, who was scared to speak up, who was too shy and anxious to make friends, who couldn’t even look at herself in the mirror without crying. My own reflection made me cry and buckle, except it wasn’t what I was seeing in the mirror that was ugly, instead it was the voices inside my head that made me feel such a way because as I’ve learnt our thoughts are powerful beings and control how we feel, how we love and how we view the world every day. I am a woman who loves sunsets, sunrises and sunflowers; I’m surprised I’m not called the golden child for I feel the Universe has helped me bloom and grow. There were days I wanted to give up and there were days I woke up feeling confused and lost, until an unexpected surprise and glimmer of clarity walked along my path and now I wake up every day with a grateful heart.

I am grateful that I get to open my eyes, stretch my arms & legs and dance into a new day. I am grateful that I get to live a beautiful life with some gorgeous human beings in my life, that make it that much better. I am grateful that I get to enjoy the work I do and provide for others in the community as the passionate spirit fuels my heart. I am grateful for all of the people I have met and those I am yet to cross paths with, I have learnt that everyone you meet is always for a reason; this a lesson I have encountered far too many times, we are practically best friends, yet every time it became clearer to me why this lesson was present. Ahh clarity you are a beautiful and funny thing (to quote “in hindsight I understand now”) … It is a famous proverb that three wishes can be granted; past, present and future. As Cinderella says “a wish is a dream that your heart has already made” and so with a heart full of love, I gracefully make mine.

To my past self,

I wish that you seek forgiveness over loyalty, because you cannot control the actions of others in your life, but what you can control is the emotion you wish to feel. Forgiveness is for yourself and nobody else, remember this always. If you want to live a happy and fulfilled life, then you need to make the decision to lovingly surrender and release anyone who brings negativity with them. These kinds of people will have an expiration date on them, and so does the potent aura that is attached to them, which isn’t needed in order for you to move forward. The key to letting go is forgiving them, loving them anyway and replacing their love with the kind you have for yourself. Your love is selfless, and deserving of peace.

To my present self,

Wow aren’t you just a bundle of sunflower goodness!! If I were going to choose three words to describe you today I would choose ~ love, nurturing and empowering ~ your heart is one of the purest I have seen and I am so proud of you for never letting anyone change that quality about you. It is something that nobody can take away from you and that is what makes you unique. Nobody else on this planet has the same eyes, smile, laugh or heartbeat that you do. You continue to strive so far and when I look back at what you have accomplished in what seems like a short amount of time I more than impressed, I am humbled. You did it baby girl!! Let that feeling sink into your heart space. For you my beautiful friend, I wish for everlasting happiness and abundance, not because money is what makes you happy, but because you deserve everything this world can offer you. You have always gone after your dreams and it doesn’t stop here. This is just the beginning and after all, every princess deserves her happily ever after. Keep shining in your light as you continue to inspire others to do the same.

And last but not least; to my future self,

I am excited at the adventures you will encounter, the experiences you are yet to witness and the opportunities you are yet to receive. Please remember that everything is always within your reach. You are love, you are peace, you are grounded, you are light. You are everything you want to be. Close your eyes and see it - that is you in another dimension, you are yet to realise. Get ready to quantum leap beautiful! You are on your way to being the glowing, gorgeous Goddess and soul I know you to be and it’s going to be an exciting and humbling time. All of your dreams have come true and continue to happen every day with all of the hard work, passion, love and persistence you put in to everything you put your mind to. The world you are creating for yourself is growing. No more hiding, you are ready to soar nice and high. You aren’t afraid anymore and have no reason to be. All of the limiting beliefs you once convinced yourself of have vanished, and now it’s time to celebrate who you are.

Deep breathe in, deep breathe out.. 1,2,3… make a wish!

I love all these versions of myself equally, because they have made me who I am today and for that I am grateful to the Universe; I am grateful for the opportunity to consistently keep exploring, learning, growing and for the opportunity to get to know myself as many times as I have needed to. The truth is we are always evolving and so as I move forward into the next twenty-one years of my life I am ready to go into each new day hopeful, ready to chase a new dream, ready to watch another sunset, ready to embrace more of my solitude, ready to hold on to someone I love deeply and ready to be present, open and mindful! I am ready to be unapologetic, authentically and lovingly me for all the world to know.

Happy birthday beautiful, let’s shine our light together and create some more magic!

Unconditional love always,

E x